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Candy



Hellos. The girl here names herself as Candy! This candy was manufactured in S'pore, 16 years ago. Education is something she pursues and her dreams of that is to be realised at 20.10.08. Since 19.09.07 her love chapter began, she has been loving BB all these while, even if her heart was shaken by unwanted desires.


Zi Lian-ing


My Wishlist

- be with him officially
- be relieved of all the stress
- more money!
- 7 straight As
- know more people
- be more gentle
- go shopping and buy all I want!
- 2 laptops (1 HP, 1 Macbook Pro)
- handphones (N81, Nokia ExpressMusic, W960)

Friday, January 18, 2008;6:02 PM
So long I didn't blog liaos.
It is just only the third week ever since the school started. I thought so many weeks had past and it was disappointing. I have no more motivation to study, although hubby kept pushing me. In class, I just sleep. And I choose homework to do. What the hell am I doing? 'O' levels is a BIG event this year and this is how I react to it?

My english sucks like shit and the only way to improve is not being lazy. Well, I wanted to do reading and others stuffs that could improve my english but, I just didn't get the right mood to study. I'm feeling so distracted nowadays. Everyone is way above me, and I'm... right at the bottom. In chemistry, I can't get many questions right. In physics, I have forgotton almost every single things.

Adults always say studying is easy, I should do it well. Is it really that easy? There is no such things as difficult and easy tasks in this world. It depends on our age group and intellectual level. Like now, I'm only a 16 year old girl this year. I can't possibly be handling with so much stresss (as claimed from an adult).

Sometimes, I'm thinking, Life isn't something I would wish for. Death perhaps may grant my dreams. Can I just commit suicide? It will end it all. But on second thoughts, what will happen to Hubby? He loves me so much (forever teasing me), and I just do this? Haiz. If I choose death, I have to choose to let go. If I choose life, I have to bear all the sufferings. For Hubby's sake or not, that's a BIG question in me.

Tomorrow is our 4 month anniversary and I ain't feeling any joyfulness for it. I don't know where I'm going to meet hubby, when I'm going to meet hubby too. Haiz, our relationship is always under constant strain and we can't expand it. We can't have so much time together, we can't really coummunicate well as he's too clever. And I'm on the verge of giving it up. What brings me back is how he loved me. He has been the one building this relationship and I'm always either breaking something apart or torturing him. I'm so not ready for a relationship, perhaps, it's time for us to end bahs? I'll tell him tomorrow.

I don't want to be the one hurting him coz, I love him so much. He should deserve a better girl than me. Hmms, something is makign me laugh. I always repeat this part. I just couldn't let go.

~I end the post. I just want to cry in my room and think of nothing else. If I am still able to not give up him, then I will stay silent tomorrow. If not, I'm going to hurt him once and for all, and end it. =.(


When Nature strikes, it kill us all.